Crash

A week ago Wednesday , I was in a car crash on the way from Portland State Univ to Canby High School. Wednesdays are a painfully busy day for me, Oregon City to Portland, to Canby and then home. I eat on the go, and have just enough time between classes to make it from one site to another. Wednesday's weather was crappy. I was supposed to carpool as a passenger, but she was very late due to the heavy traffic, so I went on. I didn't make it very far. I was hit hard from behind by an uninsured motorist. The damage didn't look too bad at first. After all the "at the scene" crap was taken care of I went to work and thought of what if all the way to work. What if I had waited for the car pool, what if I left earlier, later, what if I had not been in the fast lane. The next morning I popped my trunk and saw the extent of the damage which led right to the passenger seat where Jason usually sits. My what ifs changed. By Friday I learned that the car had been in a bad crash before I owned it and the front safety was missing. "Boy you were lucky not to hit hard head on" said the body shop guy. More what ifs. I am not really sure of the point of this post other than small turn of events can bring big consequences. That and thinking of a lot of what ifs is can be hard on the soul.